It's That Time Again

Ever have that nagging feeling of discontent?

That feeling of,

I was meant for more than this?

Where working a desk job at an oil and gas company,

isn't fulfilling that ambition inside.

Where you feel like you should be out doing something amazing,

but you're stuck here doing mundane everyday tasks,

again and again,

to where it all just gets routine.

Well Ladies and Gents,

I'm there.

But lets get one thing straight here.

I get here every couple of months.

I hit this wall of annoying irritation with my job,

to where I think,

what am I doing here and how did I get so content with this boring thing I call a career?

And then the job search starts.

I find myself utilizing resources and scouring the web for that

"Dream Job"

only to apply at every "crap" job that somewhat sounds better than here.

But then after weeks of applying,

and maybe even some decent interviews,

I realize...

"Your job allows you the freedom to work from home a few times a week to be with your son,

and yet still pays you a salary competitive with many other companies"

And then it hits me.

"You are lucky girl!"

Not many people are allowed this kind of freedom.

Most women have to go back to work full time and put their children in daycare 5 days a week.

But you don't.

And being a mother is my number one priority in life.

It's what I live for. 

So sacrifices have to be made,

just like everyone else has to make them. 

But still I find this itching feeling inside,

of wanting a career with the glamour and excitement,

that I just can't find in my current position,

or even current company.

Call it my mid twenties crisis if you will.

But for some reason I just can't shake that annoying noise in my head,

telling me that there is a bigger plan here.